15.6.15 - 21:48

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((heavily inspired by a short fic on ig about exo but i forgot the un))

i never complained. i'm not the kind of person to tell others directly about how i feel, what i thought. not that anyone would want to listen. but i listen. i listened to my friends when they needed someone, it's always me who was there when no one else does. i think it makes my friends happy, and if they are happy, i am happy too.

i never complained. not when people copied me, it's okay because that's the way they cope with life. so i stayed quiet. i didn't get angry at people using my catchphrase or even copied my style, manners, etc. it's okay because i think they are happy to be me (even though i'm not that happy to be me). and if they are happy, i am happy too.

i never complained. i didn't nag someone when i'm upset. i smiled to people around me. i always smile but not because i'm happy, but because i want other people to copy my smile too. if i frown, i'm afraid they will copy the way i frown. i don't want to burden others around me so i continued to show my smiles.

i never complained.
not even when you took away my friends.
the ones that i held dear, never wanted them to feel burdened or sad because of me.
even if their happiness cost me mine.